I made a mistake so far in the past,
And the guilt, oh how it lasts and it lasts!
The pain, the punishment, and the tears,
Standing in front of me all these years.
I’m like a thread, frayed at the end.
Broken, because I lost a trusted friend.
My stupid mouth betrayed my private thoughts.
Now my stomach’s twisted up in a thousand knots.
These regrets, they grow, day by day,
As I manage to keep my tears at bay.
My spirits are down, rock bottom I guess,
My confidence wavers, I wish to confess.
I made a mistake so far in the past,
And the guilt, oh how it lasts and it lasts!
Forgiveness isn’t free, at least not for me,
This feeling is the worst, that I guarantee.
What it takes to say sorry, definitely I lack.
This guilt and regret is such a strain on my back.
To the one I hurt,
To the one I see,
To the one who supports me
Unconditionally.
My apologies are due, it’s late, I admit.
I know my behavior was wrong and very unfit.
Forgiveness isn’t free, at least not for me,
This feeling is the worst, that I guarantee.
But forgive I must,
Even if it is to myself.
That I show a little kindness.
For what is now behind us.
It did divide us,
Blind us,
And shrivel up inside us.
My sincerest apologies.
This is for my mother, my father, and my uncle. I’m sorry.
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17 responses to ““My Mistakes” by PatBunny.”
Amazing. Beautiful. Thoughful. Relatable.
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It really is.
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Thank you.
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Very beautifully expressed ❤
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Thanks.
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This was wrenching, so familiar….
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Lots of hugs ♥
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Thanks, and to you as well! 🙂 ❤
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Poetry at its exquisite best. The manner in which you have captured the essence is indeed beautiful
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Thank you for your kind words, Kally.
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You’re most welcome. Please do pop by my blog when you have the time. 🙂
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Of course, I’ll check it out!
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The person I was in the past would relate to this on so many levels. But the person that I am today has forgiven herself. That being said, sending love and loads of support your way in your journey of true self acceptance and compassion for your own being❤️❤️ Hit me up if you need someone to be by your side while you forgive yourself!
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Awww…Thanks 🙂
I guess it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one whose regrets eat away at them, and I’m glad you’ve learned to forgive yourself. I am certainly trying to follow the path of self-acceptance, but it can be hard when you know you have hurt people you’ve loved, so thank you for your support.
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Yes indeed it is difficult but when you have realised that at some point and time you will have to forgive yourself, that’s a huge step in itself. Be proud of yourself.
Also read The Choice by Eva Edith Eger. It helped me in my journey and was a combination of feeling everything all at once yet not getting too deep as to be unable to escape later.
xx
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I’ll take a look at it 🙂
Thanks!
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This really went down my soul, hmmmm
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