My hero turned out to be a monster, it sinks further in my chest; frail leaves and empty words spill—spill
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Chapter Four of The Obsession.
"...I am not even flattering you, she probably just glanced at you and decided what she would feel, like clockwork,” he snapped his fingers. “You need to end this.” "And how do you expect me to do that?” Mischa didn’t dare break away eye contact. Respect was the only thing she had left, if it wasn’t love. "You do it carefully, Koch. Very carefully.”
Melpomene (Draft).
her lune, how precise and anticlastic as if each horror you provoked could somehow make me want you
Tom and Lauren vs Zara vs Zargaff (Soundtrack).
I created a soundtrack for the most brutal scene yet in the ongoing Identify novel collaboration.
Lost Soul (Dark Version).
I realized this sounds apt for the holidays, so now its purpose is tailored for... that
Solicitude (2nd Draft Version).
like abandoned memories, recalled by my mother like when my grandfather said “I’m going to kill you” while counting money
it was home to me (Draft).
with no thread of flowers to plant your feet on, and into morning air at a hotel room remembering that’s what home felt like.
O’ I had bad dreams.
O I had bad dreams; I was wooded into the sand, lady, I am dead from you all
Some demonstrations of sorrow (Draft).
I found a dead deer in the road at the same time my dad told me not to look;
Do not tell me what I was.
Do not tell me what I was to redraw that cold war face, to see a woman of what I bleed
snippets from a psychology textbook.
sometimes, I wish I were like that. don’t you. how do you break off from yourself do you ever think about it?
Life on Lockdown (Satire).
Note: I think I wrote this around a year ago. It was a nice diversion from the tension of those early times, while still delving into it. This is a satirical piece, so just a forewarning since the pandemic impacts us all in different ways. I don't take it lightly either as I have had distant family pass from it; back on point, I know this can be a sensitive topic so proceed with caution.
mon chèriette.
Through the smokestacks there is the death of me as I pass the hills.
glass eyes (Draft).
Glassy eyes in sumac touches she waits for me or doesn’t
Novel Collaboration (Identify): Chapter 14.
the muse is dead.
as if I held her hand, full of regret. A weeping willow rejects me breathing in my cigarettes, death’s in the traveler being left alone in Italy; from the garden, all bodied, all that red and bleak
unhappiness.
I sit at her bedroom window an age where branches hung themselves Antigone.
as rain ends.
Neurochemical duress, the labor of my body aglows, destitution in mental illness; a fragmented waste of sperm
“Flashlights Over America!” by edenbray.
the jagged teeth of a leviathan smiling across the nighttime line running low, above the clouded blue-black ink of deepest sea
Artemis and Lauren.
Hope this soundtrack could depict a bit of weirdness, a bit of surrealism, and a bit of fear in the midst of it all too--I pretty much am looking at it through Lauren's perspective, how everything is fading in seconds before she believes it is her time.